Saturday 30 December 2006

No very great depth

Well I missed my parents on Christmas day, but then I talked to them on the phone so that was OK, so the thing I really most enjoyed getting back to was popjustice.com. This makes me a very shallow person. Without it I just don't know what to watch on YouTube.

Friday 29 December 2006

The land called Holy

I am back from the land of religion. My major insight is: the Israelis are doing themselves no favours by being so scared. E.g. we parked our car in the middle of nowhere and walked down a long winding path to a monastery perched on the side of the Wadi Qelt; when we returned, with the help of some Bedouin and their donkeys, we could see against the horizon the silhouettes of men with big guns. It was a coach tour group; the Israelis are told they need an armed escort to visit the wilderness.

Monday 18 December 2006

Urbs Sion aurea

I am about to go off to to Jerusalem for a tour of the Holy Land, taking in Bethlehem. There are a number of reasons why this is a bad idea
a) I am a very anxious person; I get upset by college meetings let alone actual oppression and violence
b) yesterday I felt a bit overwhelmed in an Anglican church full of about 300 people sitting down in pews; I'm not really very good with crowds or noise
c) they are having a really rough time there -- see this
d) it's actually seriously f***ed up and no one seems to care
e) I get very car sick
f) I don't much like travelling
g) I really don't like travelling with other people
h) one of the people I am travelling with is, like my dad, an enthusiastic observer of plants, so this will probably involve long hearty walks with Latin names which I am supposed to get excited about; another of my companions is a keen natur(al)ist and I have a suspicion that he might be into long hearty walks as well; though at least the bloke we're visiting is more of a cocktails man. (Me I like nature but I'm very very lazy, and besides I've never got the hang of going for walks without a dog, though happy men are the next best thing I suppose. I can't really go for anything more energetic than an amble.)
i) I know no Hebrew or Arabic except what a half-Egyptian bloke called George whom I work with taught me; he says "Shakrun" is Arabic for thankyou. But I probably got the vowels wrong.
j) I'm rather a podge so they'll probably think I'm American and hate me, though having said that it's not much better to be British these days
k) I either won't have enough time to read, which will make me fretful, or I will run out of books, which would be even worse; I hate running out of books; once I only took three books for a few days in Paris (work trip) and I had to read each of them twice through
l) the political situation deserves another mention at this point

On the other hand it is absolute heaven not to have to buy any Christmas presents.

Sunday 17 December 2006

Intelligent Design and the Tame Lion

I wish someone would make a proper attack on Intelligent Design on religious grounds; the closest thing there has been to it so far have been some typically intelligent remarks by Rowan Williams, which as usual were comically misrepresented by the newspapers.

Intelligent Design encapsulates what I am coming to think is wrong with the extreme evangelical church as represented by certain influential groups in America, and the danger of the milder evangelical tradition in which I was brought up. It is a confidence in knowing God which leads to a false and in the end patronising confidence that therefore you know what God is like. You know what he would do in a given situation: he’s become a character in your head. What Would Jesus Do?” seems to me the daftest thing to try to live by. Read the gospels, and you get a strong sense that he would probably do something quite unexpected; something uncomfortable or even frightening; not necessarily something that would make me feel good about myself if I were there. Something I had to think about hard and long before I could begin to understand what it meant. He does angry and difficult things sometimes and his disciples, who must have known him best of anyone, were usually left behind and confused, bewildered and asking the wrong questions. (Likewise his mother and family.)

Thinking that God created the world, and thinking that species change over time as the result of the selective breeding which comes about from competition over resources, are so clearly thoughts about two such different things, on such different levels, that if you find them completely incompatiable that seems to betray something about your views on God. Viz; that you know how he works; that you know what he would or would not allow to happen (if you think that natural selection is cruel); that you can define him and map him out. You’ve got a model of God in your head and that’s who you believe in. To some extent it is impossible not to do this, which is why Simone Weil said that when we pary to God we must imagine that he doesn’t exist – because our understanding of the word “exists” in relation to God is going to be wrong. Frankly I find that sort of thing a bit excessive, but I take her point; every time we think we’ve got God pinned down and sorted out we are making ourselves bigger and more important than him, and trying to put ourselves in control. I’m afraid I’ve never found a better way to put this than the bit in (the book of) The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe where the children are going to meet Aslan and when they’re told he’s a lion they say “Oh so he’s a tame lion?” And the Beavers are shocked and say “No, he’s not a tame lion”.

The paradox is that at the same time God has made himself knowable to us; he has given us the right to be his friends, co-heirs of Christ. So the evangelical willingness to pray to God about tiny things, like “where is my pencil case?” (a favourite of my childhood) is on the one hand a willingness to let God into every corner of my life and a belief in his total love for me, and on the other hand has a danger of my making up narratives to wind God into in order to control him. It’s a similar paradox to God, the greatest thing in the universe, becoming one of the smallest and most helpless, a baby with no home. At least, that’s how it seems to me now, but I hope my understanding will always continue to increase as I get older.

Intelligent mammal trouble

As a couple, the word I associate with my parents most is "bicker". This trip home I have constituted myself the impartial judge against whose ruling no appeal can be made. So far this morning I have decreed that yes, it is unreasonable of my mum to try to dust the oven while my dad is making Sunday dinner; and that no, my dad should not put his used tea leaves down the sink. We were discussing the latter while standing by the kitchen window, looking out over the back garden; we were interrupted by the appearance of an endangered mammal in the pond. Most of our back garden proper is a pond, my father's work. Every time I come home he has altered the configuration of weirs and ponds in the stream which leads down to it. It is very much a wild pond, with a swamp at one end planted with bog weeds, and it has frogs, newts and toads, plus all sorts of strange bugs. Last time I was home I looked out of my bedroom window before I had even got up one morning and there was a fat kingfisher perched over the shallow end.

The endangered animal swimming across it was plump and fluffy, and out to retrieve the floating fish food. It was a rat; it made me exclaim, ah, look how lovely it is! The reason it is endangered is that rats found a way to get into the walls of our house. My parents, being enlightened creatures who would never reject anything out of hand for conventional reasons, don't in the least mind there being rats living by the pond, but they don't like the idea of them inside the lining of the walls, which is sensible given the chaos they could wreak on the cables and piping there. The problem is that, as I can attest from my experience of keeping rats as pets, once an idea has got in their head it is very hard to make them forget it. My parents comprehensively closed the hole they found with wire netting, that spray filler stuff, a slate and some concrete, but still the rats managed to open it again, and now my parents think there may be another hole. They bought a thing that makes a high-pitched noise which rats apparently dislike, though of course they've had to turn that off while I'm at home with my tame rodents (Lilian, Muesli and Yaffle). And they have a humane trap in which they catch occasional (very annoyed) specimens; they then take them off to our furthest away field, where they join the ex pat rat community, presumably reminiscing about the good old days by the pond. (Unless, they just get on with their lives.)

But if they can't stop the rats getting in the walls then as a last resort they will call in an exterminator. This saddens me, obviously, though I can see what they mean. It's part of what's fundamentally wrong with life. The other day the subject came up of Ph.D.s and whether they're something to be proud of -- and I realised that the greatest achievement of my life so far is stopping my first rats, the late lamented Izzy and Aggy, from getting inside my sofa. After a huge number of attempts I eventually managed this by covering the entire frame of my sofa except for the cushions in chicken wire. I expect that my parents will not be able to do this to the whole house, so the rat swimming across the pond to collect fish food is probably facing an uncertain future.

Saturday 16 December 2006

BWO: more lyrics

"You've got me fighting like a wild juggernaut. "
[Repeat until end of song]

Feeling quite fond of my mother

It's family season and I am at my parents' house in Devon. My mother even collected me this morning and drove me all the way down. It took us more than seven hours, though we did stop for an hour or so with my aunt. My mother's sat nav device is giving her trouble -- which sounds like a very posh thing to say, but my dad really needs one for his work, so my mum's car has one in case. It sometimes tells her to turn right where there are no turnings, and take the fifth exit from imaginary roundabouts. "The thing is", she said embarrassedly, "you know how oftentimes to win us to our harm the instruments of darkness tell us truths and win us with honest trifles?" I said I quite understood; the sat nat has become an instrument of darkness. Later I found the quote immediately, because I knew it would be in Macbeth. My mother isn't bothered about other Shakespeare or literature in general really, but she loves Macbeth. When I was very small I would sit on her lap and we would do the witches together in funny voices.

My mother is a loony, but in an excellent way. She has odd habits, like sometimes when she goes to the supermarket she'll only buy things beginning with the same letter; in my time I have come up with lots of circumlocutions for milk, like "bovine lactations". She once wrote a very moving poem about her love for cardboard boxes. My father is even more of a loony, so it's a wonder I turned out so normal.

Friday 15 December 2006

BWO update

I now have the album Halcyon Days by Bodies Without Organs, and it does not disappoint. Sample lyric:
You must have been the angel who lost the grace of god,
cos I can't help repeating your sweet hymn on my ipod.
Strongly recommended.

Wednesday 13 December 2006

79p wouldn't buy you an icecream these days


If you have 79p to spare then the Girls Aloud Megamix, part of the Something Kind of Ooooh EP, is packed with pop value.

As an 'experiment' I have typed 'megamix' into the itune shop search box. The Gloria Gaynor megamix seems to go straight from 'I will survive' into 'I am what I am' and might be a bit strong for my tastes. It could be kept in reserve as an emergency megamix. I already have the Chris Cox Britney megamix from the Greatest Hits, which doesn't so much mix the big tracks as play them all at the same time like some sort of 'mash-up'; it requires more active thought than is ideal from a megamix. Stylishly, Boney M have a 'mégamix', which is presumably cheaper than the musical; I actually downloaded that one. The free thirty seconds of the Technotronic megamix did not help me to remember if they actually had more than one hit (Pump up the jam?) and at this point I lost interest. As a whole, disappointing.

Monday 11 December 2006

Against the day

I've finished Pynchon's Against the Day. I paused to read other things in between, but I enjoyed it on the whole. However I think it suffered from the same thing as the last one, Mason and Dixon, in that it tailed off towards the end. There are certainly some excellent bits, but not enough Pugnax, frankly, and, too much wierd sex in the last couple of hundred pages.

The bit with the flirty dog Mouffette was quoted in the Literary Review's preview guide to the Bad Sex award. I can't believe David Mitchell didn't win for the woman making a noise like a tortured moomintroll.

Sunday 10 December 2006

Euston Road

Is it just me or do all the members of The Pussycat Dolls look like very good male-to-female transsexuals?

Oh pop

I'm watching Popworld, which has a feature on Take That. I'm finding it strangely moving, in a comforting sort of way, to have them back again. Gary Barlow singing about the fist of pure emotion -- it seems like the world's back where it should be. They were very big when I was just at the right age to realise that it was OK to like things that weren't cool; someone who is now one of my best friends sent me a Take That Christmas card in 1994, before I knew her well. I remember the BBC news announcing their split and giving a phone number to call if you were very upset; while I didn't avail myself of that, certainly, it felt like one of the many gradual declinings of growing up, like having to spend money on electricity not novels, and being responsible for buying my own loo roll.

Anyway now they're back it seems like there could have been an alternative world, where Camilla and Di could talk to each other when they handed over the children, though they were never friends, and the Labour party getting into power made things better. &c &c &c. &c.

Saturday 9 December 2006

BWO

Martin from Bodies Without Organs is the male Britney Spears. This is because of his hair colour and complexion, but also because he can carry off an expression of wide-eyed idealism while not wearing many clothes. Britney would probably also look good as a pug.

Thursday 7 December 2006

Consolation

I've been having a tiring week, or term, or year, &c &c, but I came across this video for Chariots of Fire by Bodies Without Organs and it has rather cheered me up. There are dolphins and horses, singing dogs and a rabbit with lipstick, but also a lightly-clothed woman soaping a car, and an oiled man, so something for everyone really. There is a moustache of very high quality, on a bandmember whose instrument is apparently 'laptop'.

And I just found out they're Swedish!

Yay!

Tuesday 5 December 2006

Vows

This is very wrong: they're just messing with us. I read a book recently in which someone seduced a Roman Catholic priest, one of Michele Roberts' more fun novels, and it shocked me rather a lot, like the first time I saw a nun kiss the crucifix at Easter. I yearn to keep the body out of some things, and if I knew more theology I would know what heresy that implicates me in. Possibly Manicheanism? I'm not sure.

My grandpa, whom I miss, signed the pledge as a young man, back when this was a big social movement. He grew up in Plymouth, and worked in the docks. Later in his life he changed his mind about the things that had led him to give up alcohol, and thought that moderate drinking was fine and no problem. But he never went back on his vow because he had promised. It still makes a big impression on me that he kept to it. I don't think I would have; at least, I can't swear that I would have.

He used to remind me of the fruits of the spirit: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, generosity, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. After he died I thought it was a pity that description made him sound so dull, because he wasn't at all.

Monday 4 December 2006

Good things

Am on volume II of Against the Day. Hurray for Pynchon!

This is to promote Robbie Williams. I approve of the way he doesn't appear and isn't mentioned in it. If I had more energy I'd make a list of the itune-able songs in his latest album but I'm tired out through chatting to nervous seventeen-year-olds about their academic achievements. At the head of the list would be "Bongo Bong and Je Ne T'aime Plus" with Lily Allen. I have not asked any interview candidates about Robbie Williams yet, because by law we are not allowed to talk about anything human. It's very hard work. I wish I was allowed to get each of them to recommend me one book.

Friday 1 December 2006

Pop pickers

Actually the Shiny Toy Guns album is good in parts but not all the way through. It gets a bit samey after a while. Ok so your parents don't understand you and you're a bit confused about gender -- shouldn't you be living in the eighties? I haven't yet picked out which of the tracks are worth persisting with, but in the meantime, here are some helpful tips about which tracks on Jamelia's Walk With Me you should download for 79p from itunes instead of buying the album.

You certainly don't need the cover art (see right). The single "Something About You" is quite cute but not essential.
"Window Shopping" is either about sex as a metaphor for shopping, or about shopping as a metaphor for sex, or may just be about harassing shop assistants. Anyway it's catchy and worth 79p. It samples Mrs Slocombe but she's not talking about her hilarious cat so it's OK. "Ain't a Love" is good; 'if this ain't a love', she asks, 'why is my ass in motion all that you're thinking of?' This is an odd definition of love, and I'm afraid I can't see the whole situation working out well. "Beware of the Dog" is great but your attitude to sampling might affect your enjoyment here; it uses the bass line from Depeche Mode's version of "Personal Jesus". Admittedly about 80% of the song's brilliance comes from Depeche Mode and only a small part from Jamelia, but then she's standing on the shoulders of giants, like Bernard of Chartres.
That's 79p x 4 making £3.16, saving £4.79 on the amazon price!

Frugality

Am listening to the Shiny Toy Guns album. It's quite good. But I object to spending more than about six quid on an album these days. Britney's Greatest Hits with bonus CD for a fiver is more like it.

Wednesday 29 November 2006

Dismemberment

I'm really enjoying Pynchon's Against the Day; he's definitely got better as he got older. To solve the wrists problem I carefully excised the covers with a craft knife I haven't used for ages, and then split it into two volumes. I reinforced the edges of both spines with electric insulating tape, and then added basic covers cut from a large padded envelope. I'm very pleased with the result. It even looks quite attractive. I'd post an image but I can't be bothered, so you'll just have to shut your eyes and imagine it (especially given that I doubt that "you" isn't me, as it were).

Monday 27 November 2006

You are awful (but I like you)

I've finished rerereading V, and I enjoyed it; but I'm wondering what it is I enjoy so much about about Pynchon. In particular I'd have thought the dodgy women bits would put me off. I'm not sure anyone would publish the fate of Mélanie l'Heuremaudit these days, unless in a sort of ironic way like Byatt's Babel Tower, which I disliked. Another book I loved which I shouldn't have was Perez-Reverte's Queen of the South; this is about a drug-dealer and not my usual sort of thing, but it's just seriously brilliant like everything he's ever written. Another one is Julian Rathbone's The Crystal Contract. I like Rathbone even though he's very cheeky in the sort of way which usually annoys me. Read King Fisher Lives; the story is that it failed to win the Booker because Lady Wilson, who was on the panel that year, was disgusted by its immorality and language; it's very brilliant, and extremely memorable in an iconic sort of way.

PS When I wrote this I also forgot Lawrence Durrell. The Alexandria Quartet is great, the Avignon Quintet greater, and actually the latter even has some reasonably-portrayed women in it.

Sunday 26 November 2006

Peaches

OK so I still really like the huge spider pop, but I think maybe it has a lot to do with its being very like a cleaner version of Peaches' F*** the pain away; what else is in the teaches of peaches? I once had to turn off the excellent 2 Many DJs album because a not-particularly clean-mouthed friend of mine objected to Peaches' message. Or it maybe it was the Lords of Acid suggestions about where to sit. The excellent version of I was made for loving you can be found on the Headrush album by Queen of Japan.

This website will do your head in.

V

I'm re-reading V because someone said that Against the Day is a prequel to it, but given Pynchon's penchant for re-using names and characters, like Pig Bodine, I won't be surprised if it's no such thing. I'd forgotten that V is the one with all the animals -- the alligators, rats, and rainbow-coloured monkeys. And the excellent Edwardian Victoria Wren. And the Whole Sick Crew.

I have renamed this blog in its honour, after the dwelling-place of Veronica, the first rat saint. I write with Lilian the rat trying to squeeze through my sleeves. She is not a candidate for sainthood; if she were I can't imagine keeping her as a pet. Animals, unlike people, aren't on any moral journey, and this is why they are so good for us. My rats' response to me is based entirely on my actions and their needs, and this is almost inexpressibly restful. Lilian has tired of me now and is trying to climb on my bookcase. In a moment I will offer her a Delicious Treat, and she will happily go home.

Thursday 23 November 2006

Thomas Pynchon

If you like Thomas Pynchon, then another author whose work you might enjoy is Thomas McGuane. Try The Cadence of Grass for starters. There's something about the way his sentences curl back on themselves which is very Pynchon-like and satisfying. I visited America for the first time ever this summer and went into the huge bookshop on the Stanford campus. Shockingly they didn't have any McGuane on the shelves. I bought the new Patrick McGrath instead. His Asylum is truly chilling.

Recently recommended to me as the best crime novel ever set in Oxford or Cambridge (in my conlocutor's opinion edging out even Gaudy Night, my favourite) is Michael Innes' Operation Pax. I've ordered it second-hand. I like to get book recommendations from interesting people.

Book hacks

Life hacks is an annoying term, it's true, but there are some useful ones about. The whole 43folders thing is supposed to be good, and I really like the way that it revives the old 'household tips' genre. But what I was really wondering about today is customising books. I am awaiting with eagerness the arrival of my pre-ordered copy of Thomas Pynchon's latest, though it might be a while given that online stores seem to be low on copies. I thought it might be a good thing to take with me on my trip to Israel in December, given that I loathe being at an airport without something to read, and even my more-than-usually-interesting travel companion might not be adequate compensation.

The problem is that the thing is the size of a smallish breeze block and would take up a substantial amount of luggage allowance. Back when I first read Vikram Seth's A Suitable Boy I was struck by his suggestion, both within the text itself with regard to Shakespeare's plays (it goes down very badly with an English faculty as I recall) and in an article he wrote for a newspaper at about the time it came out, that we should chop books up into sections freely and without regret. In the article he said that A Suitable Boy had been specifically laid out with this in mind, so that each of the twenty chapters started on a recto, and he urged people to take out razor blades and have a go. I did this to my copy, cutting it into five not twenty pieces; not only did it make it a whole lot more manageable to read, but it gave me a pleasant feeling of transgressing middle-class mores. Also it shocked my then boyfriend. On another occasion I had to buy (due to reading compulsion) the second volume of Neal Stephenson's Baroque Cycle before it came out in paperback, and to save my wrists I customised it into a paperback. I took the cardboard boards off either end, wrapped the dustjacket round the end pages, and covered the outside in sticky-backed plastic to make an improvised flexible cover. Its second-hand value may have been affected -- but I was unlikely to sell it ever anyway.

If the new Pynchon becomes as beloved a Pynchon to me as, say, Mason and Dixon, then I'm not going to be too precious about keeping it a nice copy, because I'll get through more than one anyway. And the paper of hardbacks seems, perversely, to be more vulnerable to reading than that of paperbacks. Perhaps a future post will be: what is wrong with hardbacks.

Wednesday 22 November 2006

The death of rats

I haven't added anything to this blog for a while; one reason for this was the death of my pet rat, Zoe, on the operating table. It's a risk to put a small mammal under general anaesthetic. I might have done things differently if I'd known the outcome -- maybe I'd have had her put to sleep straight off instead. I thought my remaining rats -- Lilian, Yaffle, and Muesli -- were looking at me oddly for a while after that. Lilian, who had lived with Zoe all her life and may have been her sister, wouldn't come out of the cage for two days.

In general, my rats trust me, and if something startles them they move towards me rather than away. They seem to feel safe on my shoulders, or in my sleeves. Zoe was very light on her feet and sometimes felt like a small bird perched on my hands (unlike Lilian who sits on her stomach). She was very fast moving and my nickname for her was sleekit, but sometimes she would fall asleep in my sleeve, making it much harder for me to type or turn the pages of books.

Friday 27 October 2006

More reading

Now Marie Antoinette has met her fate I've moved back to John Julius Norwich's The Middle Sea: a History of the Mediterranean. JJN is one of my favourite authors ever, so I'm reluctant to admit I'm finding it a bit disappointing. Maybe it's just not one for his fans. His three-volume History of Byzantium is brilliant, and one of the first things of his I read. I've now read it all two or three times, I forget, and I've read all his Venice and Sicily stuff. Naturally a lot of the same events occur in a history of the Mediterranean, but I can't escape the feeling that sometimes paragraphs are repeated verbatim. I think my quarrel isn't with the book itself, more with the project. Every now and then he seems to be apologising for straying beyond some undefined limit from the sea -- and given that he doesn't talk about actual sea events much it seems like an artificial sort of idea.

Still everything he's ever written has been worth reading and his Christmas Cracker compilations are brilliant. They make excellent gifts for invalids, among others.

Things I like but don't care about

popjustice have released the results of their pop survey. It gives me the impression that these people actually quite care about pop. Most people don't think Madonna should grow a beard, which is odd -- I'd like to see Britney with a beard too.

Another thing I can't get worked up about is Celebdaq which seems like it will stop being fun if I ever spend more than five minutes on it in one week. And that is why I occasionally make minus profits (losses, to get technical) and do about one tenth as well as the other people in my league. Probably. Or is it Jordan's fault? It's unlikely to be mine -- I'm quite intelligent you know.

Thursday 26 October 2006

Listening and reading

I am listening to The Rough Guide to Arabesque; I like track 3 best so far.
Once I've finished it I will return to the popjustice compilation CD which is just Great.

I am reading the biography of Marie Antoinette by Antonia Fraser. It's reminding me a bit of the gospels, where you're just getting into it and suddenly you realise he's on the road to Jerusalem. Otherwise it is not reminding me of the gospels that much.

Tuesday 24 October 2006

Huge spider pop

http://video.umrg.com/shinytoyguns/ledisko/
Songs with sudden stops where they miss a beat are good.

What is it for?

This is frightening. First, it's just frightening. Secondly, I don't seem to be able to watch something like that any more without questioning my motivation in watching. On the one hand it's good to question your own motivations: on the other it means I turn everything into a question about me. From the comments most people's reactions are to do with what the armoured vehicles should have done. If we could work out the answer to that question it might still not neutralise the video clip.

Some things I like

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tbQNgOKzZh8
Maybe it's a bit like Spike Jonze's video for FatBoy Slim's Praise You, and the song is quite forgettable, but then also it's quite pleasing.

http://www.popjustice.com
Yay! Their compilation CD is very good, only some of the tracks are too short, and you're just getting into them when they fade into something else.